This week has been one of those week which would typically shatter me, but it hasn't.
My period is with me, and for all of those of us who are trying for a baby, this indicates another cycle where our hopes have not been fulfilled. Certainly since Christmas I have been devastated with the start of a period. My DH also lost some contracts this week as the company he works for as a freelancer went into administration… hmmm must change side bar… Clearly that hits us financially, and causes me to worry – normally. Oh and its his birthday today.
On Tuesday this all hit, my hormones and pain at its worst and Andy’s news… and I don't feel shaken by any of it. I have been praying about the idea that I cant continue to live with this persistent sadness. Regardless of whether I have a child or not, I need to be pain free, I just can not live this life completely absorbed by the pain… and I guess it makes my blog a really hard read to consistently hear me say I’m struggling.
As I said last Friday I think I’m working out how to manage the pain, and given this week, I really think I’ve found something that works for me.
My plan is on Monday to write it up rather than a Bead Basic Tutorial as I feel that at the moment this is the most amazing thing I could share. so please pop back then
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Dearest Julie, I stumbled upon your blog while reading Kelly Rae's blog. Your story really moved me and while on the other side of the world, I feel like I can feel your emotions and pain through the words on your blog. I have been battling with many demons and issues as well and always struggle with whether or not I should discuss them on my blog or just post about my art..
ReplyDeleteYour beads are lovely and I wish that I had a chance to be a part of your giveaway.
Hope you continue with your positivity and strength.
xoxo
Your honesty is inspiring. My very best wishes to you as you go through all of this.
ReplyDeletethank you so much for your lovely comments. It is wonderful and so inspiring to feel like I am seen and my heart heard. Thank you
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